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Ugly, Average, Pretty, Beautiful, Hot? (pix)?

I am obsessed with becoming better and better looking. I spend lots on my hair, skincare, makeup, clothing, etc. to achive this. This obsession is ruining my life to the point I can no longer sleep and have considered asking my doctor for sleeping aids. What my doctor believes to be depression is only getting worse to the point I want to commit suicide. I feel hideous compared to other girls that it is preventing me from doing things like going out, getting a boyfriend, having friendships, actually going to university, etc. I am also obsessed with plastic surgery. I think about the lip reduction, nose job, brow lift, facial liposuction, jaw reduction, chin reduction, etc. I will have when I am older. I have decided to live with my parents once I get a job after university so I can use all my money on plastic surgery. I am not going to move out until I am done. My goal is to be at least an 8.5. I need tips in the mean time to improve my appearance. I don't want to be pretty, I want to be very, very pretty. I have tried lots. Taking care of my skin so that I can have more "natural" beauty to further look better with makeup. I get my nails done every two weeks. I have tried a new hair color, makeup, clothing style, weight loss. I have tried caking my face and then trying a more natural look with less makeup. I still look a monster/drag queen/man. I hate the fact I look like my dad/manly and it makes me feel ugly when all my sisters look like my mom/feminine. I am going to buy more things this weekend to further improve like a new shimmer lotion so my skin looks even better. I also want to change my haircut again. I spend at least $300-400 every month just to "improve" and to no avail that it is driving me nuts. I have this itch that just won't go away to constantly try harder. Also, when I do my best and go out, everyone else is so gorgeous but me! So then I literally feel sick or get a headache and have to wash away the makeup, everything as I feel I can't breathe, etc. It's hard to describe. I know there is always going to be someone better looking but this is too much! No one else on YA has asked this type of question the way I am asking. Normally, it's how can I become prettier? I need tips to surpass "pretty" and jump to "beautiful" or "very pretty"! I feel like I have to go all out to be half as pretty or even normal as other black girls I see. I am so weird looking I can't stand it. I compare myself constantly. I've even found scientific sites distinguishing feminine builds from masculine builds and I fit everything on the "masculine build". Here I am without makeup. You were warned! I am NOT photogenic. http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v119/genko_boys/9073157505_0.jpg http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v119/genko_boys/9073153793_0.jpg http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v119/genko_boys/9073148929_0.jpg Me with makeup: http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v119/genko_boys/9060334721_0.jpg http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v119/genko_boys/9060308097_0.jpg http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v119/genko_boys/9062393601_0.jpg http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v119/genko_boys/9060274689_0.jpg http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v119/genko_boys/9060315265_0.jpg http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v119/genko_boys/9060283393_0.jpg I am 18 BTW.

Public Comments

You are insecure and shallow to ask such a question. Grow up. There are more important things in life, there are people starving, dying, imprisoned and being raped in the world right now.
I really think before you go buy anything else or think about self enhancements I really think you should focus on your own self improvement because having beauty is wonderful but It will fade.I think you should really try to focus on parts of your body that you think are beautiful and put emphasis on it and maybe wait until you have built up your self esteem to a good level
omg. such shallowness! n y r u obsessed wit yr look? don't you hv better things to do? here, let me give u some - volunteer for fund raising for cancer awareness, help wit terminally ill patients( some kids who got just weeks to live) Maybe those will get u thinkin wat narrow,shallow levels u operate in. ps - i think u look just fine in yr pics.
I THINK YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL WITH AND WITHOUT MAKE UP AND YOU NEED TO LEARN TO LOVE YOURSELF FOR WHO YOU ARE! TRY CUTTING YOUR HAIR SHORT I THINK IT WILL LOOK NICE ON YOU!
if beuty is in the eye of the beholder and you are the eyes that matter you should take a good long look at the girl underneath all that makeup..i have suffered from depression and u shound like u have it but yours is focused more on one area but depression keeps you from sleeping untreated you have thoughts of suicide this is serious you NEED to talk to your doctor. and you look just fine and anyways looks are about 1% of a person the 99% of mind is what realy matters and right now your 99% is obsesive with looks and just wants people to say hey your gourgious cuz you are so full of yourself get over yourself
Your like one of the prettiest girls i've seen on Y/A all through this week, stop being so shallow and learn to love yourself you sound so self absorbed no one will ever pay any interest in you because of that.
okay..maybe you will look better with the lip reduction but other than that, you are beautiful..and do you wear contacts or those your real eyes?? They are very pretty though.. and your hair looks awesome..your makeup is fine but I think you should wear a little less red lipstick.. but everything else--like the eyeshadow and stuff looks great on you
i think i would be a bit of hypocrite to talk you out of plastic surgery becuase i feel the same way you do and i have considered all of those surgeries but i dont think i would ever be able to afford them to be honest but personally i think you have got you shit together - i gave up on every thing school work trying to talk to people at least you dont have people calling you ugly if you do the surgery i beg you to do your research properly know ever detail of what you want make sure get the best and certified surgeon money should be no object remember it is your face and if they fuck up up you cant sue them http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y4lBsWS2YMc&feature=related but i do think that before the surgery you should go thought councilling so you have already accepted yourself and love yourself ...cliche i know but true ...you should over do it also they are plastic surgeons not god
Hey. So an honest answer to your question...you're rather pretty. Sure there are some features that stick out a bit, but only because you pointed that out. You have nice hair, and your eyes are pretty. Are they real lol? Anyways, if something really IS driving you crazy, then I don't think its ridiculous to want to get it fixed. I'm self conscious about my nose and want to get a nose job. But yeah, you're definitely not ugly. There's no harm in wanting to look good, just don't go overboard. I suggest not looking in the mirror so much, because then every flaw will literally drive you insane. Hope that helps some.
I think your hella pretty. Beautiful eyes, I like me some chocolate every now and again. Keep it real, and remember, you are beautiful.
Oh my god, I have the same exact thing as you. I want to IMPROVE IMPROVE IMPROVE IMPROVE. I mean, if you can improve, why not? I've bought several skin products and I'm getting surgery on my mouth in a few months to reshape it. I have a small bump on my nose and I may get it flattened in the future. I'm also on a strong pill for my acne called accutane :) What you have is called body dysmorphic disorder -- I have it as well. I quit school and barely go outside because of it. Don't worry, you are PRETTY!! with & without make-up :)
you have beautiful eyes.. why are you concentrating on the negatives and disregarding the positives?? the only prob i find with u is that you care so much abt ur looks that ur expressions are unnatural...loosen up, let go and smile! :)
damn girrrrrl....... you got some good hair
You look very pretty. Your eyes look gorgeous if I were you I would get a nose and lip job and a hair trim and you will look very pretty. but you also need to be pretty on the inside so don't think that you aren't and stress makes you look less pretty!
ur GORGEOUS!! thats better thab "very pretty" an d"beautiful" ur are absolutely gorgeous! im sure u are just insecure about urself, u need to love urself more..beauty is in the eye of the beholder and im sure to someone u just might be the most beautiful girl! bcuz ur beautiful :) just stop obsessing over ur beauty bcuz there are many more things in life to enjoy and beauty isnt the only thing! ur beautiful and u should be happy bcuz happiness makes u even more beautiful :)
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friend..u not need to underestimate urself.. getting pretty face is not the only goal of all d gals.. there r girls who get boyfriends but the boyfriend only gets attracted to her beauty n used their gf without considering her emotions..its important to get someone who loves ur internal beauty and not external appearance..i m sure there is sum1 in this world who will accept u as u r n who will love u deeply due to ur external beauty...so friend stop thinkig negative about urself... we all get our faces frm our mom n dad..so dnt blame urself as inturn u r blaming ur parents... i witnesse dabt the gals whos get ditched by their bf due to her beauty...boys dont consider the internal beauty of a pretty gal..they just get attracted by their external beauty..but such guys r just shit.. i m not saying tht all guys r like that...as in this world 2 types of ppl lives..good n bad someone made for u will b loyal to u n love u frm within..just wait for that auspicious day..
I literally got scared when your picture popped up !!
I don't see a thing wrong with you. I know how you feel though, I constantly compare myself to everyone around me. It's terrible to always feel like the ugly duckling. But I assure you, love, you are not the ugly duckling! You need to realize that you are beautiful! And even though superficial beauty is great, what's important is your personality and being obsessed with the way you look is not healthy.
What I have to say has already being said before: You are beautiful, Grow Up, Appreciate who you are. One of my closest friends just died last week. He was found on the lake (probably suffering from a depression..idk) but what I do know is that if he were to be here again, he would want to appreciate every moment life gives him, whether or not, some girl smiles at him, whether or not, the boys tell him he's cute or cool. Whatever happens, he would have wanted to appreciate each moment he was given. So now it's up to you. Are you going to appreciate this moment you are given, and stop focusing on the negatives. Like seriously, I have seen worse, nose screwed up, mouth askew, heads crucked. You've got to look at the beautiful side of life. You're alive, you can breathe, you can show love from within. Besides, that's all that matters afterall. Not the beauty of a thousand diamonds, but the beauty within. That's what would change the world. That's what would stop the little children from crying: a beauty from within. Now focus on that, and make that little inside you, a beautiful you. Jesus loves♥ you!!!
http://mstaken.com/blog/wp-content/uploads/2010/01/Heidi-Montags-Face-Before-and-After-Surgery.jpg thats what you will look like if you get plastic surgery. that monster is only 23 but she looks like a beatiful 60 year old woman. so i guess you want your youth to be taken away in a few hours with surgery. get a real job, buy a house. if i told my mom i wanted to stay at home just for plastic surgery she would smack my face so hard that i woul get my own plastic surgery for free. there are people with face deformities that are way happier than you. you need to fly yourself to haiti and go ask them if their biggest problem is looking pretty. i wont even bother giving you any more advice because you should know better!!!
You are very good and fine. Thanks
you've got to live for yourself. do what you like to do and don't worry about what other people say or think.