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I feel suicidally depressed because I look UGLY and not pretty? (long) (DON'T ANSWER IF YOUR GONNA BE AN A**)?

All my DARN LIFE I always wanted to be attractive, smart, social, and successful, but I've achieved NOTHING no matter how hard I tried, and I really give up for good. I nearly failed 6th and 7th grade, and right now 8th grade sucks just as bad, and people in my family and some kids at school think I'm a complete shithead. I do have a small circle of friends and I am social but I feel like I'm a waste of their time and they'd be better off without me because whenever I try to be fun or funny I end up sounding and acting like an idiot. Besides, They most likely all hate me. I hate everything physical about me. My black hair is unkempt and untidy when loose so I keep it up in a boring ponytail all the time. My stomach and legs are flabby so I can never wear cute tight fitting tee shirts shorts or capris without feeling fat even though I've lost weight from 117 to 101 at 5'1. I have ugly zit breakouts and stubborn blackheads on my huge too-wide flat nose. My eyes are too dark and chinky. I have acne scars on my forehead. My face/head is a f**kin watermelon. and Lord, don't even mention my eyebrows!! Scraggly like a mans! I'm seriously putting into effect a makeover asap. I don't care about the cost. New hair, new makeup, hair removal and everything, and if that doesn't work I want a full face plastic surgery. If I can never afford plastic surgery or never get it to improve the way I look I really just want to die, cause I'll never marry a cute kind guy, or be appreciated so I don't care. That's how low I feel right now. If you see my picture.. you'll end up gagging all over your monitor but you'll see why. And if it ACTUALLY looks good to you, than either your BLIND or my only single moment of being photogenic came out. http://i34.tinypic.com/5lwaqo.jpg I know I need therapy, but I'm getting it soon and I don't feel like it's ever going to change my self-esteem. I just really want to kill myself cause I can't do anything right in life.

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Aw, sweetie, don't kill yourself. You have natural beauty. Everyone is beautiful in their own way. You have pretty eyes, and you sound like a nice person on the inside. Don't worry what other think. It's what you think aboutyourself that matters,
some one tell you you were ugly? Your not.Your pretty in fact.And it will get better with age.If you are interested in changing your looks,you could go with a little eye make up to bring them out.But you are pretty any way.People are rude.Don't listen to them. Have a great day.
You're pretty. No lie. Just don't let others beat you down and dress and look how you like to look. Don't put yourself down. You'll look even more pretty with a great self-esteem. Everyone want to hang around people with a good attitude towards themselves and others. Beauty is mainly on the inside.
No that's not ugly trust me
[edit] - i did see your picture, and you are adorable. i mean that! hey there. i read everything you had to say, but i'm not able to look at your picture because my PC is stupid. haha. but you know what, i don't have to see your picture. to begin with, i think you seem really witty and funny. i feel terrible about what you're going through, but you are a great writer, and to be honest, i'd rather hang out with a funny, witty person who may not be attractive than with an attractive person who's either hung up on him or herself or just boring. so, i do think that you have that going for you. it sounds like you feel really frustrated with EVERYTHING. you aren't happy with your appearance, you feel like your friends and family don't like you, and you're not doing great in school. that must just be so overwhelming for you. let me start by giving you a BIG CYBER HUG! THERE! :) now, let me just encourage you to not give up! ok, so you may not be all that attractive, but you are still a teenager, and you could still give yourself a makeover and everything. you don't need surgery! :) i've been really attracted or found beauty in people who are not, by society's standards, beautiful...but they were gorgeous to me because of who they were. i mean, granted, you want to look the best you can, but if you do that and combine it with some self-confidence and just be you - THAT is attractive! gosh, i know this just must be so hard for you. i promise you that not EVERYONE hates you! it's just not possible. that's a mis-conception. i hope you'll be able to see that! i feel that you have a lot of potential! go be you, and don't look for your identity in other people's approval of you. i hope all the best for you!
are u serious? ur not ugly at all. ur pretty. just get ur eyebrows done and put a little makeup on. try to exercise more if u think ur fat but it doesnt look like it. use eye makeup such as eyeliner, mascara, and eyeshadow to make ur eyes stand out and look pretty
honestley you need to laugh at yourself when you make a mistake when you were describing your picture i was prepared for something terrible but i got a pretty girl who just looks bored try puting on makeup and doing your hair nice whenever i do that i feel pretty even if when i loook in the mirror i dont look it http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index;... please help me
hey Hun, your not ugly at all!! i really think you need to speak with your doctor it sounds like you have body dis-morphia in which you don't see what everyone else see's! if your not happy about how you dress n keep your hair you can change that, for your hair how about a scruffy bun?? clothes you have to find what your comfy in!! skin problems are common in teenage years so i wouldn't worry about that there are plenty of products out there to help clear up spots n blackheads and they are not that costly if you study harder you will do well at school... and if that doesn't help talk to a teacher about it n explain your finding it hard and i'm sure they will help you and understand. anyway i hope you do seek the help you need and realize your not ugly and the pics in the magazines are not real there all touched up
Therapy sounds like your best bet, but in the meantime you should remember that suicide is a PERMANENT and IRREVERSIBLE "solution" to a problem that is always complex and, most importantly, always TEMPORARY. People will miss you when you're gone. They will miss you much more than you can understand at this point in your life. Pick up an exercise activity that you like--yoga, swimming, tennis--and start doing it on a regular basis. The endorphins will help combat the depression, and you might notice some nice physical changes as well. Start a journal or sketchbook. Write poetry, novels, or short stories. Join art club. Get yourself out of the house and away from temptation, and start therapy as soon as possible. You are beautiful, unique, and special. Write it on your mirror and tell it to yourself every day. I wish you the best of everything.
I promise it gets so much better. High school is so fun, and college is so free. everyone gets down on themselves you just need a different outlook, if i may i'd like to offer some advice: 1) watch the movie "The United States of Leland" and i mean, reaally watch it. think about it. really. also as a bonus ryan gosling is in it when he was like 20 and adorable so you should enjoy it just for that hahah :] 2) go to postsecret.com and read through the site, it's nice to see that everyone else has insecurities too sometimes ;] heck even send one in! 3) lastly go to a therapist, but don't go begrudgingly. on your way there just gritt your teeth and pretend like you know it will help you, then later you can reward yourself for being brave by buying yourself something pretty or something chocolate pretty soon you'll read this again and be amazed that you ever typed all that stuff up there
You have beautiful eyes, and from what I see on your pic you have nice smooth skin. You may have a condition called Body Dysmorphic Disorder, where you see things in your physical appearance that aren't really there. Have a look at the link I've posted and have a think about your behaviour. Everyone (aside from a lucky few) gets zits at times so don't stress over it. Going for a makeover is a good idea, it will help you learn tricks to hide flaws and accentuate your best features, and it will work wonders with your self-confidence. Your hair does not look unkempt to me, but if you really feel that way, invest in a good pair of straighteners as they will make your hair smooth, silky and shiny. 101lbs is actually slightly underweight for your height, so I can assure you that you will not look fat. The most important makeover you need is not physical and you do not need plastic surgery, but you do need a major overhaul on your self-esteem. You need to learn to love yourself because confidence is one of the most attractive things about a person. Trust me, you are not ugly.
First off, some people just don't like school. I for one struggled in many classes. I thought by getting some tutoring it would make look dumb amongst my friends and family. Well guess what it has helped me so much. You need to find something that interest you too. We are taught that physical beauty is what makes a person. That is so wrong. I have friends of all colors shapes sizes that are wonderful, beautiful people. Your physical does not make you. You need to start saying positive things to yourself for instance, I am beautiful, I am smart, I choose to be around friends and family who love and care about me for me. I can not live for everyone else I have to live for myself. I am a good person. I love me. I just look at your picture and your a pretty young lady. Pleas try your hardest and write these sayings done and keep them with you. Say them over and over again to yourself. It will help and please go to your counsler at school and tell them you would like to talk them about your self esteem. Like I said don't worry about what other people think. Here is a number you can call for some good talk. Teenlineonline 1-800-852-8336 This is not just for boys okay. "Boys town hotline" 1-800-448-300. I hope and pray you smile today, because you have someone who cares. :)
You are as pretty as anyone else out there, as pretty as any of the girls at your school. They just maybe know how to hide their individual faces behind a mask of makeup and conventional beauty. You have obvious low self esteem and so have a sort of distorted body image where you can't see anything good about yourself, but there are good things, it's all good. And your friends probably don't hate you, otherwise why would they hang out with you, spend time with you etc? Your eyebrows are as fine as anyone elses, but you could always pluck a few stray ones if it makes you feel better. Also wearing hair down frames faces nicely and would hide acne scars on your forehead, try a sweeping side fringe or something, that's what i do! You might be able to do this just by trying a side parting. If your hair bothers you try curling it or straightening it, or blow dry it upside down to give it volume ,or whatever that does :P Also Go to shops and try on clothes you wouldn't normally consider! But no matter what you do to change your outside appearance it's your own self worth that is more important. You are as good as any of the other girls out there, and as for school ,there is help there if you need it and you can do anything you want to do ! I hope this helps ,i really do !
shut up you are NOT ugly your cute try make up it will make you even more beautiful your seriously not ugly tho a full face plastic surgery?!!?!?!?! what are you thinking look up the elephant man. he had a deformity NOTHING is even wrong with youre face!!!!!
girl! What the heck?? by your description you made it seem like your a hideous creature! I was like preparing myself for fat bushy brow chick! And then i clicked on your picture and i was likee WTFFF the only thing ugly about you is the way you look at yourself! ya need some self confidence girl. you have pretty features! honestly! Like if i didnt believe it i wouldnt say itt hahaha. I wish my skin was as clear as yours.. haha and your sitting there talking about acne and all that. Put you on some make up and take that ponytail down, and flaunt what you got! haha cuz you got it
Girlfriend, you are a heck of alot prettier than alot of other oriental people i have seen. Look at that comedian with the last name of "Chow' . I don't remember her first name.She cant even open her eyes my god. I am sure you are as smart as heck and who cares I am a little ugly too. I care more about being smart so I can help people. 50% compassion 50% into yourself it evens out in the end
You're not ugly, but even if you were, the only you ever would be succesful in life as you said you wanted to be would not be too get plastic surgery and give yourself a makeover but to just accept yourself for who and what you are. Trust me, I have had a load of trouble with this.. I've spent nearly half my life now trying to change the way I look and guess what- I still look the same. I just had to accept that this is what I look like, and whether I'm pretty or not that's not what matters.. I can make something of myself. And so can you. Put on a little makeup and flat-iron your hair to make you feel a little more confident and go out and find something you're good at and proud of it! And make that be what matters.. not your appearance. Because appearances fade but you will always have your mind.
You are very attractive. You are only in eighth grade? Fifteen years ago (I'm sorry if this creeps you out), when I was in eighth grade, I went through a similar kind of suicidal depression. I thought I was the most unattractive, skinniest waisted, biggest legged, and in general the ugliest guy in school. It turns out, I couldn't have been more wrong. I was only five foot three inches tall and am now five feet seven inches tall. Girls all over the school had crushes on me and I didn't even know it. I felt awkward and like I didn't belong anywhere. My point is, you are very attractive. Maybe you feel the way you do because all of those other girls are so jealous of you and your beauty. Everybody feels like you in 8th grade. I think you are wrong about being unattractive. I'm going to tell you how to improve improve your face with just a few items from the drugstore. First, get some green concealer. The green will neutralize any red spots from the acne that you may have. Second, buy makeup products in the Cover Girl line. They are designed for teenage girls. Ask the beauty adviser at the drug store for exact products to use (I used to work as a beauty adviser at CVS Pharmacy). You look good without lipstick, so you may just use a clear lip gloss. Third, wash your face twice a day with soap and water, once in the morning after waking up and in the evening prior to going to bed. That will help with acne. If you can keep your hair off your face, that will help, too. Exercise daily by walking, bike riding, playing sports, etc. This will help with the self esteem, too. Play sports at school and join groups in the school. Becoming social will help you make friends and help your self esteem. Tell yourself that you are the most beautiful girl in school. Believe it and it will happen. If you believe you are beautiful, others will start to believe it, too. Talk to your doctor about your depression feelings. He can help you. I hope this helps you. I've been in your shoes.
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